OMG! It's snowing again!! 8D

I'm totally going to be taking pictures! Because it's fun! Snow in California is very unique lol, but not when you live up in the mountains!

I took pictures~!

( Snow pictures! And Epic picture of myself )

Why did I even start listening to this song?!

*flails around*

Why did it give me inspiration to write?!

....

*goes to write*

1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands [fannish etc.] that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest A FAVORITE CHARACTER/PERSON in at some time in your life.
2) Have your f-list guess your favourite character/member from each item.
3) When someone guesses correctly, strike through the item and put the name of your favorite character next to it.

1. Dolls
2. Devil May Cry
3. Hellsing
4. Firefly
5. Dead Like Me
6. Avatar: The Last Airbender
7. Death Note
8. Air Gear
9. Weiss Kreuz
10. Axis Powers Hetalia
11. Kyou Kara Maou!
12. Kingdom Hearts
13. Arrested Development
14. Doctor Who
15. Final Fantasy 7
16. Fullmetal Alchemist
17. Dynasty Warriors
18. X/1999
19. Uuuh, Yami no Matsuei
20. Transformers

.... this was hard because I started to forget the fandoms. But have fun and good luck!

I hate the fact of going in for a brief interview that only took like five minutes. Whatever happened to normal interviews that was the ACTUAL interview. It's like always a brief one before the "main" one. I don't get it, but hopefully I get a call back.

I mean, it's a movie theater... what are they really looking for in people? Just that they can work everyday, every holiday, and actually know what they are doing. I'll BE THE BEST at the job, because HECK, I'm bored and haven't been doing anything. Just sitting around on my ass all day, give me a job somewhere PLEASE!

....I'm done ranting with that.

The rest of my day went well! Just going to keep repeating the phrase "PLEASE CALL ME BACK" over and over again.

Just have to keep my fingers crossed.

I LOVE LIVING UP IN THE MOUNTAINS!

FIRST DAY OF SNOW! FIRST DAY OF SNOW! Sadly, it didn't last all day! But I woke up this morning, walked downstairs looked out the window and BAM. WHITE SNOW EVERYWHERE! I squeed and wished that I had snow boots so I could build a melting snowman. I can't wait until snows again since I'll build one anyway!

Dolls inspired! From a couple of days ago.

( An Evening Together )

SWEET!

Happy Thanksgiving to those celebrating it.

I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Besides the fact of having my problem of the month. We had a delicious meal as well as a birthday all in one day. It was great. I ended up getting a little bit tipsy, but overall it turned out to be a great night.

NEW CHAPTER OF DOLLS! Things are starting to get intense for this arc!

I think my night is pretty much complete! :D Ended with a good note. I can't complain.

Okay, here's a bit of a update. Since I could get online late at night yesterday, I went around checking everything. Mainly checking onemanga.com to find out a lot of updates in Dolls, which included 5 chapters that I didn't get to read. So yay! Now I'm all caught up with that and currently just doing many online applications while I still can. Still job searching and let me tell ya, California's economy is in the suck right now. I do mean really bad, so finding jobs here is ridiculous. But I'm pretty sure it'll be the same if I do end up going back home to Pennsylvania.

Yeah, if I can't find a job by January I'll be going back to my parent's house in Pennsylvania. I'm not looking forward it, but at the same time, it'll give me a break and just to relax while finding a job. I'll most likely try to get a job at a hospital there. I'm trying to get a hospital job here since that's my main goal.

Other than that, I think I might be coming down with a cold. Every of my roommates already went through their colds and I'm the last to get it! BUGGER! Oh well.

This song is one of my current obsessions. Ever listening to Infected Mushroom's new album I enjoyed it greatly! It has more guitar, more style to it, it's really different from all of their others! This is has great changes in it that just make me want to hoop to it. Yeeah, I hoop sometimes.

Oh, and? Is there anyone out there that love candles? If you do you should totally check out this
website!

( Cant Stop by Infected Mushroom )

Okay.

So I'm giving you all an update.

I'm still alive and still searching for a job. I did have a job interview on Monday, but I knew I completely bombed it. I couldn't think straight with just standing and talking. I was totally uncomfortable but meh, it was a mall job anyway. I'll still keep my search and hope that I'll eventually get one. I need to work, so badly. That might sound odd to some but really, to make anything in life you need a job. So I'm looking hard for one.

Uh, also, when I do get the internet, I will not be journal rping anymore. I will, however, be willing to do some one-on-one rping over AIM, MSN, and whatever instant messaging that I may have.

Maybe, in the near future when I'm not running away trying to get my life in order. I may go back to journal rping. For now and when I do get net it will be a big no. Sorry to those who are expecting me back but now that I've been away for months. I rather not deal with drama online and some drama in my life. It's hard to balance both and keep a straight mind to it all and be partial to everything.

I will not get into the big stuff. Let's just leave it at that.

Another good thing and update is that I have been writing more. I wish to continue writing and it helps me to be more creative. I missed that part of my life and I feel like it is a good thing. Hopefully, when I feel that it's unique enough and good I may even try to publish one of my works.

If none of you hear from me in a while, don't think I'm trying to ignore everyone and everything. I just can't get to the net everyday to talk to everyone. Do know, that I miss you all and I wish that I could talk to everyone again. Hope to hear or speak to some of you soon.

See you all later.

I usually don't party hard. Let me tell ya, jello-shots are the boom. I had a grand total of five jello-shots. I had four in the beginning. Then we played a lovely game called quarters. If you don't know the game, let me explain, basically you are bouncing a quarter off the table and into a shot glass. You have two shot glasses going and you and the person opposite of you try it. Once you get it into the shot glass you pass it to the next person. Say the person opposite of you is still trying but now the person next to them it trying to get it in. The person next to you gets it in before you, you take the shot in the middle.

I had a total of two shots from that game on top of four jello-shots. I even took a fifth jello-shot during the game because the stupid quarter went into it. I'm not sure how many shots that actually is. Probably four and a half, because the jello-shots weren't that strong. But that's more shots then I usually take.

The birthday was a blast besides a few minor drama issues towards the end but what can you do? But I'm going to be feeling it in the morning and not be having any kind of alcohol for a while again.

I haven't really partied this hard since St. Patty's Day, so it's all good!

This is a video from youtube of the song that helped with the inspirational writing.

( Illuminaughty -- Infected Mushroom )

Have you ever had one of those inspirations? That came from listening to a song? I haven't had one of those in a very long time. It hit me like a ton of bricks and the imagery I got from it. Oh man. I can't even put it into words right now.

Check back later when I can actually write more coherent!

I had my court thing today, The Commissioner was a very hard strict old woman. She didn't really want to hear any kind of story. She only really wanted to hear whatever she answered. So, I got out of having to do the registration part. But driving with no insurance hit, and they WIPE you clean of your money. It was either pay this BIG fee or do 96 hours of community service. HECK, 96 hours? That's only a couple of weeks. I need to get this done before November too. It's not that hard, besides, I wouldn't mind doing community service just to get a better view of the towns and such.

We went to people's houses and chilled out there for several hours. Finally got home around 10:30ish, then we went through Scentsy things. Right after that we watched Balto, now I'm finally relaxing out in my room. I'm hot too, D| it was ridiculous out in the valley, all dry and very hot. It was icky.

Glad to be home and relaxing finally. Hopefully I'll be around for most of the day tomorrow.

Since it was Anime day for Cartoon Network, I actually decided to stay awake long enough to catch Death Note on Cartoon Network. Fancy that it was the episode after L's death. Which had a wonderful timeline leading up to the point to his death. I'm going to admit, I haven't watched nearly enough of the Death Note Anime, for a lot of reasons.

As the episode drew to a close, all I can say is that at least there was a Matsuda dork moment. Other then that, the next episode will be where I actually started to re-read. So, I guess every Sunday morning at 3am I'll be watching the episodes until I get to the part where I left off...maybe. I'm curious to see the last episode in dubbed, but I will not force myself to go find it on youtube. I OBJECT. If I'm really really bored, then I might.

Well since it's 4am, I'm going to go head off to sleepland!

Oh, that back pain? It was totally gone the next day.

I'm not going to be around tomorrow at all. I'm going to be laying in my bed trying to get over whatever this is. Be it a pull muscle or whatever not. Stretching it doesn't help and it makes it worse. I really want this to go away but bad timing with the whole Swine Flu scare. This has been going on for about a week now and three days.

It wasn't hurting for a while today. That might have been due to either the computer chair I was using or actually having my mind focus on something for FOUR HOURS and MORE. WoW is addicting after a little while and all that I'm doing is running around leveling.

Walking around actually helps a bit. Which is a tad bit odd... I don't know what else to do about it.

I want this pain to go away already.

I want to stop hurting so I can actually think properly.

.---.; Just have to keep stretching and hope it'll go away soon.

When you are in a deep conversation with your best friend. Things do manage to come up. I do remember one specific detail that she had told me.

We were listening to old music that both of us remember. From "Dolphin's Cry" by Live to "No Surrender" by Weiss. We even came across romance and how I would love to have a little romance in my life. That's all I ask for. Just a little bit of romance, even if it's small, that's all I want.

That's not the only thing I'm here to talk about. Since she had told me something. That something made me realize that it's true. However, as much as I wish to speak about it and what it is. I won't. Because it means a lot to me. It's a good way to know who actually really care about me. It's a good way to know who are actually my true friends. I even wish that some other people would speak up on things that they don't like. That hey, maybe you should back off, or any other kind of things that I do that I don't notice.

My best friend has told me many things. I look up to her, because she has grown into a very beautiful person. I even hate comparing my looks to hers and to her best friend. It made me stressful, hurtful, hateful, and even jealous. But that's when I started thinking, what can I do to make me better? What can I do to grow to be a better person?

I read horoscope things. My best friend had showed me one that was really really good. However, it was the Celtic zodiac section that I took to heart. Since the site doesn't have a Capricorn zodiac page just yet. The Birch from December 24-January 20th. There is one piece of information that I took from this that actually works.

"Birch people need a goal in life in order to avoid becoming depressed and pessimistic." I actually find this to be very true. Once I started setting goals, I became less depressed and less pessimistic. I started to become much more positive and looking at things in a much more positive view point. When others started to get depressed, I would tell them to look at better things. Think about the positive more then the negative. Why look on a negative view point anyway? It just makes things much worse than they should.

I usually don't take these things seriously. Because most of the time they are completely not me at all, I take in more of the prospect of what can actually help me. That did, I tried it and I'm much more happier than I once was. I want to keep it that way.

I make goals everyday. Most of the time I do get a chance to do those goals. Other times they are just there because I need them to be there to push me to actually do something.

My main goal right now is to find a decent job. That is number one along with just having fun.

I typically don't do anon meme's for many reasons. However, my own personal goal is to just let things go as they should be. Anything that needs to be said that can't be said, be my guest to do it there. Heck, it'll probably even help me grow as a person.

ANON MEME