When you are in a deep conversation with your best friend. Things do manage to come up. I do remember one specific detail that she had told me.
We were listening to old music that both of us remember. From "Dolphin's Cry" by Live to "No Surrender" by Weiss. We even came across romance and how I would
love to have a
little romance in my life. That's all I ask for. Just a little bit of romance, even if it's small, that's all I want.
That's not the only thing I'm here to talk about. Since she had told me something. That something made me realize that it's true. However, as much as I wish to speak about it and what it is. I won't. Because it means a lot to me. It's a good way to know who actually really
care about me. It's a good way to know who are actually my
true friends. I even wish that some other people would speak up on things that they don't like. That hey, maybe you should back off, or any other kind of things that I do that I
don't notice.
My best friend has told me
many things. I look up to her, because she has grown into a very beautiful person. I even hate comparing my looks to hers and to her best friend. It made me stressful, hurtful, hateful, and even jealous. But that's when I started thinking, what can I do to make me better? What can I do to grow to be a
better person?
I read horoscope things. My best friend had showed me one that was
really really good. However, it was the Celtic zodiac section that I took to heart. Since the site doesn't have a Capricorn zodiac page just yet. The
Birch from December 24-January 20th. There is one piece of information that I took from this that actually
works.
"Birch people need a goal in life in order to avoid becoming depressed and pessimistic." I actually find this to be very true. Once I started setting goals, I became less depressed and less pessimistic. I started to become much more positive and looking at things in a much more positive view point. When others started to get depressed, I would tell them to look at better things. Think about the positive more then the negative. Why look on a negative view point anyway? It just makes things much worse than they should.
I usually don't take these things seriously. Because most of the time they are completely not me at all, I take in more of the prospect of what can actually help me. That did, I tried it and I'm much more happier than I once was. I want to keep it that way.
I make goals everyday. Most of the time I do get a chance to do those goals. Other times they are just there because I
need them to be there to push me to actually do something.
My main goal right now is to find a decent job. That is number one along with just having fun.