urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18 Never Doubt Anything kaorisiberian18 2009-12-22T23:41:43Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:29991 2009-12-22T23:41:43Z 2009-12-22T23:41:43Z Okay, so, I woke up around 11am today. I decided to go back to sleep for some extra time. HORRIFYING THING! I slept for 46 minutes. That whole 46 minutes was a MINI EFFIN' NIGHTMARE! <br /><br />This one team of police swat men went into the forest to go fight off this really strong humanized zombie. I mean, I can't really describe it any other way besides that it looked really tall and thin, had some disfigurement and anyone that got near it...kind of exploded or just went batshit crazy. One of the really tough looking swat man went <i>crazy</i> and started killing his own men. Saying stuff like doing them a "favor" because yeah, it was a favor since they couldn't figure out how to kill this one strong zombie thing. <br /><br />Another team decided to go in to at least help. In the end the swat man started to kill them too, but one of the other team members ended up getting the zombie on to a long stake pole upside down. Shouts "BURN MOTHER FUCKER" and lights the thing on fire. It goes up in flames and is screaming, flailing on this stake thing. However, since it can spit shit at people it spit this acid ball at the guy that put him up in flames. Which sucks... there's only like one guy left alive and he's dealing with the crazy swat man. However, the crazy swat man takes the one rookie member stabbing him and himself in the chest in this lake. So, the swat man basically kills himself as they sink into the lake.<br /><br />The one lonely guy left walks up to the screaming zombie and shoots the fuck out of him. Not only that but somehow there's a second zombie that comes out of bloody no where. It runs out the guy who just shoots the thing right in the chest tearing through the chest cavity and explodes the decaying heart. However by this point of the dream everything is going red and eventually the zombie like melts to the ground and everything goes black.<br /><br />Not to mention this whole time in the background was some kind of creepy music with girls singing in the background. Beats the hell out of me what it could have been.<br /><br />AND that's when I woke up, going WTF?! So much for trying to get more sleep, couldn't fucking go back to bed after that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:29781 2009-12-19T02:42:17Z 2009-12-19T02:42:17Z Nothing new! Just a meme that I thought would be interesting 8D<br /><br />This list also makes me feel old D| good god.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />ANIMATION MEME<br />- X what you saw<br />- O what you haven’t finished or saw sizable portions<br />- Bold what you loved<br />- Strike what you disliked/hated<br />- Leave unchanged if neutral<br /><br /><br />CLASSIC DISNEY<br />———————————————-<br /><b>[x] 101 Dalmatians (1961)</b><br />[x] Alice in Wonderland (1951)<br />[x] Bambi (1942)<br /><b>[x] Cinderella (1950)</b><br />[x] Dumbo (1941)<br />[x] Fantasia (1940)<br /><b>[x] Lady and the Tramp (1955)</b><br />[x] Mary Poppins (1964)<br /><b>[x] Peter Pan (1953)</b><br />[x] Pinocchio (1940)<br /><b>[x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)</b><br /><s>[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)</s><br />[O] Song of the South (1946)<br /><br />DISNEY’S DARK AGE<br />———————————————-<br />[x] The Aristocats (1970)<br />[ ] The Black Cauldron (1985)<br /><b>[x] The Fox and the Hound (1981)</b><br />[x] The Great Mouse Detective (1986)<br />[x] The Jungle Book (1967)<br /><b>[x] The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977)</b><br /><b>[x] Oliver and Company (1986)</b><br />[x] Pete’s Dragon (1977)<br />[x] The Rescuers (1977)<br />[x] Robin Hood (1973)<br />[x] The Sword In The Stone (1963)<br /><br />THE DISNEY RENAISSANCE<br />———————————————-<br /><b>[x] Aladdin (1992)</b><br /><b>[x] Beauty and the Beast (1991)</b><br /><b>[x] A Goofy Movie (1995)</b><br />[x] Hercules (1997)<br />[x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996)<br /><b>[x] The Lion King (1994)</b><br /><b>[x] The Little Mermaid (1989)</b><br /><b>[x] Mulan (1998)</b><br />[x] Pocahontas (1995)<br />[x] The Rescuers Down Under (1990)<br />[x] Tarzan (1999)<br /><br />DISNEY’S MODERN AGE<br />———————————————-<br /><b>[x] Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001)</b><br />[x] Bolt (2008)<br />[x] Brother Bear (2003)<br />[x] Chicken Little (2005)<br />[ ] Dinosaur (2000)<br /><b>[x] The Emperor’s New Groove (2000)</b><br />[ ] Fantasia 2000 (2000)<br />[x] Home on the Range (2004)<br />[x] Lilo & Stitch (2002)<br /><b>[x] Meet the Robinsons (2007)</b><br /><b>[x] Treasure Planet (2002)</b><br /><br />PIXAR<br />———————————————-<br />[x] A Bug’s Life (1998)<br />[x] Cars (2006)<br /><b>[x] Finding Nemo (2003)</b><br /><b>[x] The Incredibles (2004)</b><br /><b>[x] Monsters Inc. (2001)</b><br />[x] Ratatouille (2007)<br />[x] Toy Story (1995)<br />[o] Toy Story 2 (1999)<br /><b>[x] Wall-E (2008)</b><br />[ ] Up (2009)<br /><br />DON BLUTH<br />———————————————-<br /><b>[x] All Dogs Go to Heaven (1989)</b><br />[ ] An American Tail (1986)<br />[x] An American Tail: Fieval Goes West (1991)<br /><b>[x] Anastasia (1997)</b><br /><b>[x] The Land Before Time (1988)</b><br />[ ] The Pebble and the Penguin (1995) [I MIGHT HAVE SEEN don't remember D|]<br /><b>[x] Rock-a-Doodle (1991)</b><br /><b>[x] The Secret of NIMH (1982)</b><br />[x] Thumbelina (1994)<br />[x] Titan AE (2000)<br />[x] A Troll in Central Park (1994)<br /><br />CLAYMATION<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] The Adventures of Mark Twain (1986)<br />[x] Chicken Run (2000)<br />[x] Corpse Bride (2005)<br />[x] James and the Giant Peach (1996)<br />[x] Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit (2005)<br /><b>[x] Coraline (2009)</b><br /><b>[x] The Nightmare Before Christmas (1993)</b><br /><br />CGI GLUT<br />———————————————-<br /><s>[x] Antz (1998)</s><br />[x] Happy Feet (2006)<br /><b>[x] Kung Fu Panda (2008)</b><br />[x] Madagascar (2005)<br /><b>[x] Monster House (2006)</b><br />[ ] Over the Hedge (2006)<br />[ ] The Polar Express (2004)<br />[x] Shrek (2001)<br />[x] Shrek 2 (2004)<br />[ ] Shrek The Third (2007)<br />[ ] Monsters vs. Aliens (2008)<br /><br />IMPORTS<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] Arabian Knight (aka The Thief and the Cobbler) (1995)<br /><b>[x] The Last Unicorn (1982)</b><br />[ ] Light Years (1988)<br />[ ] The Triplets of Belleville (2003)<br />[ ] Persepolis (2007)<br />[ ] Waltz With Bashir (2008)<br />[ ] Watership Down (1978)<br />[ ] When the Wind Blows (1988)<br />[ ] Yellow Submarine (1968)<br /><br />STUDIO GHIBLI/MIYAZAKI<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] Grave of the Fireflies (1988)<br /><b>[x] Howl’s Moving Castle (2004)</b><br />[ ] Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989)<br />[ ] Laputa: Castle in the Sky (1986)<br />[ ] Lupin III: The Castle of Cagliostro (1979)<br />[ ] My Neighbors The Yamadas (1999)<br />[ ] My Neighbor Totoro (1993)<br />[ ] Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind (1984)<br />[ ] Only Yesterday (1991)<br />[ ] Pom Poko (Tanuki War) (1994)<br />[ ] Porco Rosso (1992)<br /><b>[x] Princess Mononoke (1999)</b><br /><b>[x] Spirited Away (2002)</b><br />[ ] Whisper of the Heart (1995)<br />[ ] Ponyo on a Cliff by the Sea (2009)<br /><br />SATOSHI KON<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] Millennium Actress (2001)<br />[ ] Paprika (2006)<br />[x] Perfect Blue (1999)<br />[x] Tokyo Godfathers (2003)<br />[ ] Memories - “Magnetic Rose” part (1995)<br /><br />SHINKAI MAKOTO<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] She and Her Cat (1999)<br />[ ] Voices of a Distant Star (2001)<br />[ ] The Place Promised in Our Early Days (2004)<br />[ ] 5 Centimeters per Second (2007)<br /><br />OTHER ANIME FILMS<br />———————————————-<br />[x] Akira (1989)<br />[ ] Appleseed (2004)<br />[ ] Appleseed: Ex Machina (2007)<br />[ ] Arcadia of My Youth (U.S. Title - Vengeance of the Space Pirate) (1982)<br />[x] Cowboy Bebop: The Movie (2003)<br />[ ] The Dagger of Kamui (U.S. Title - Revenge of the Ninja Warrior) (1985)<br />[ ] Dirty Pair: Project Eden (1987)<br />[ ] End of Evangelion (1997)<br />[x] Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz (1998)<br />[ ] Fist of the North Star (1986)<br />[ ] Galaxy Express 999 (1979)<br />[x] Ghost in the Shell (1996)<br />[ ] The Girl Who Leapt Through Time (2006)<br />[ ] Lensman (1984)<br />[ ] Macross: Do You Remember Love (U.S. Title - Clash of the Bionoids) (1984)<br /><b>[x] Metropolis (2001)</b><br />[ ] Neo-Tokyo (1986)<br />[x] Ninja Scroll (1993)<br />[ ] Patlabor the Movie (1989)<br />[ ] The Professional: Golgo 13 (1983)<br />[ ] Project A-ko (1986)<br />[ ] Robot Carnival (1987)<br />[ ] Robotech: The Shadow Chronicle (2006)<br />[ ] Silent Möbius (1991)<br />[ ] Space Adventure Cobra (1982)<br />[ ] Steamboy (2004)<br />[ ] Sword of the Stranger (2007)<br /><b>[x] Unico and the Island of Magic (1983)</b><br />[ ] Urotsukidoji: The Movie (1987)<br />[x] Vampire Hunter D (1985)<br />[x] Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust (2000)<br />[ ] Wings of Honneamise: Royal Space Force (1987)<br /><br />CARTOONS FOR GROWN-UPS<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] American Pop (1981)<br />[ ] The Animatrix (2003)<br />[x] Beavis & Butthead Do America (1996)<br />[x] Cool World (1992)<br /><s>[x] Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within (2001)</s><br /><b>[x] Final Fantasy: Advent Children (2005)</b><br />[ ] Fire & Ice (1983)<br />[ ] Fritz the Cat (1972)<br />[ ] Heavy Metal (1981)<br />[ ] Heavy Metal 2000 (2000)<br />[ ] Hey Good Lookin’ (1982)<br />[ ] Lady Death (2004)<br />[ ] A Scanner Darkly (2006)<br />[x] South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut (1999)<br />[ ] Street Fight (Coonskin) (1975)<br />[ ] Waking Life (2001)<br /><br />OTHER ANIMATED MOVIES<br />———————————————-<br />[ ] Animal Farm (1954)<br />[ ] Animalympics (1980)<br />[ ] Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon The Movie (2007)<br />[ ] Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker<br />[x] The Brave Little Toaster (1988)<br />[ ] Bravestarr: The Movie (1988)<br />[x] Cats Don’t Dance (1997)<br />[x] Care Bears: The Movie (1985)<br />[x] Charlotte’s Web (1973)<br />[x] Fern Gully (1992)<br />[ ] G.I. Joe: The Movie (1987)<br />[ ] Gobots: Battle of the Rock Lords (1986)<br />[ ] He-Man & She-Ra: The Secret of the Sword (1985)<br />[x] The Hobbit (1977)<br />[x] The Iron Giant (1999)<br />[ ] Justice League: The New Frontier (2008)<br />[ ] Lord of the Rings (1978)<br />[ ] Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland (1992)<br />[ ] My Little Pony: The Movie (1986)<br />[x] Pink Floyd’s The Wall (1982)<br />[x] The Prince of Egypt (1998)<br />[ ] Powerpuff Girls: The Movie (2002)<br />[x] Quest For Camelot (1999)<br />[ ] Ringing Bell (1978)<br />[ ] The Road to El Dorado (2000)<br />[ ] Rock & Rule (1983)<br />[x] Space Jam (1996)<br />[ ] Starchaser: The Legend of Orin (1985)<br />[ ] Superman: Doomsday (2007)<br />[x] The Swan Princess (1994)<br />[ ] Transformers: The Movie (1986)<br />[ ] Wizards (1977)<br />[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988)<br />[ ] Wonder Woman (2009)<br /><b>[x] Balto (1995)</b><br /><b>[x] Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002)</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:29535 2009-12-17T01:53:16Z 2009-12-17T01:53:16Z I can't express how much fun it is to watch old animated movies that I enjoyed as I child.<br /><br />Yes, a lot of them where Disney but there were plenty of others. The Secret of NIMH and All Dogs Go To Heaven. There was also one more that I used all the time.<br /><br />Felix the Cat: The Movie, Rainbow Brite, as well as Unico in the Island of Magic. I...I basically cried out in joy when I finally figured out what the name of that movie was! I was even more excited to find it one youtube so that I can finally watch it after all of these years.<br /><br />Aaaw, childhood memories. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:29271 2009-12-11T23:47:42Z 2009-12-11T23:47:42Z Taken from <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_robinterrae' lj:user='robinterrae' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://robinterrae.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://robinterrae.livejournal.com/'><b>robinterrae</b></a></span><br /><br /><i>Leave me a comment saying "POKON".<br />I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better.<br />Update your journal with the answers to the questions.<br />Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.</i><br /><br /><b>1. What do you find the most different between California and Pennsylvania?</b><br /><br />California is really smogtastic compared to Pennsylvania's humidity. Since now I live in a small mountain town, there hasn't been much of a difference. It's cold, rainy and snowy lately which is lovely for California which I have missed ever since moving here in 2007. Pennsylvania has a lot of neat scenery too, more mountain and forest areas. Where California has a bunch of freeways and less scenery from place to place.<br /><br /><b>2. Other then Ken <s>whom I'm guessing is your favorite character in Weiss,</s> who else is your favorite character?</b><br /><br />Brad Crawford is another favorite of mine. <br /><br /><b>3. What is your favorite thing about role playing?</b><br /><br />Currently, being more of a creative side and just being able to connect with a character and actually making them come alive the way you want them to. It also helps me reach my peak in writing anything too.<br /><br /><b>4. Your LJ SN... is there a story behind it?</b><br /><br />My LJ SN and my AIM SN are similar and have a story. I made the SN when I was eighteen, so hence 18 at the end of it. Kaori was an original character that me and my best friend (and one current roommate) made up in an rp together, I know this is gonna sound clique since it was for a Weiss Kreuz rp that we just shoved original characters in. Siberian is the code name for Ken, who is a favorite character of mine. So I just shoved them together to create a SN. <br /><br /><b>5. If you could do one thing and not worry about the consequences (ie, money, jail time, etc), what would it be?</b> <br /><br />Go and visit Japan! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:29127 2009-12-07T23:29:05Z 2009-12-08T00:34:05Z OMG! It's snowing again!! 8D<br /><br />I'm totally going to be taking pictures! Because it's fun! Snow in California is very unique lol, but not when you live up in the mountains!<br /><br />I took pictures~!<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><br />This is the mountain next door to us!<br /><br /><a href="http://s156.photobucket.com/albums/t8/kaorisiberian/?action=view&amp;current=IMG_0327.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i156.photobucket.com/albums/t8/kaorisiberian/IMG_0327.jpg" border="0" alt="Snow~"></a><br /><br />This is the town below over a cliff.<br /><br /><a href="http://s156.photobucket.com/albums/t8/kaorisiberian/?action=view&amp;current=IMG_0326.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i156.photobucket.com/albums/t8/kaorisiberian/IMG_0326.jpg" border="0" alt="Snow!"></a><br /><br />And EPIC PICTURE OF MYSELF.<br /><br /><a href="http://s156.photobucket.com/albums/t8/kaorisiberian/?action=view&amp;current=IMG_0328.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i156.photobucket.com/albums/t8/kaorisiberian/IMG_0328.jpg" border="0" alt="Epic picture!"></a><br /><br /><a name="cutid2"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:28900 2009-12-07T21:53:18Z 2009-12-07T21:53:18Z Lady Gaga - Christmas Tree Why did I even start listening to this song?!<br /><br />*flails around*<br /><br />Why did it give me inspiration to write?! <br /><br />....<br /><br />*goes to write* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:28492 2009-12-02T19:49:34Z 2009-12-02T19:55:41Z 1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands [fannish etc.] that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest A FAVORITE CHARACTER/PERSON in at some time in your life.<br />2) Have your f-list guess your favourite character/member from each item.<br />3) When someone guesses correctly, strike through the item and put the name of your favorite character next to it.<br /><br />1. Dolls<br />2. Devil May Cry<br />3. Hellsing<br />4. Firefly<br />5. Dead Like Me<br />6. Avatar: The Last Airbender<br />7. Death Note<br />8. Air Gear<br />9. Weiss Kreuz<br />10. Axis Powers Hetalia<br />11. Kyou Kara Maou!<br />12. Kingdom Hearts<br />13. Arrested Development<br />14. Doctor Who<br />15. Final Fantasy 7<br />16. Fullmetal Alchemist<br />17. Dynasty Warriors<br />18. X/1999<br />19. Uuuh, Yami no Matsuei<br />20. Transformers<br /><br />.... this was hard because I started to forget the fandoms. But have fun and good luck! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:28184 2009-12-02T07:16:22Z 2009-12-02T07:16:50Z I hate the fact of going in for a brief interview that only took like five minutes. Whatever happened to <i>normal</i> interviews that was the ACTUAL interview. It's like always a brief one before the "main" one. I don't get it, but hopefully I get a call back. <br /><br />I mean, it's a movie theater... what are they really looking for in people? Just that they can work everyday, every holiday, and actually know what they are doing. I'll BE THE BEST at the job, because HECK, I'm bored and haven't been doing anything. Just sitting around on my ass all day, give me a job somewhere PLEASE! <br /><br />....I'm done ranting with that.<br /><br />The rest of my day went well! Just going to keep repeating the phrase "PLEASE CALL ME BACK" over and over again.<br /><br />Just have to keep my fingers crossed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:28075 2009-11-29T01:46:13Z 2009-11-29T01:46:13Z I LOVE LIVING UP IN THE MOUNTAINS!<br /><br />FIRST DAY OF SNOW! FIRST DAY OF SNOW! Sadly, it didn't last all day! But I woke up this morning, walked downstairs looked out the window and BAM. WHITE SNOW EVERYWHERE! I squeed and wished that I had snow boots so I could build a melting snowman. I can't wait until snows again since I'll build one anyway! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:27894 2009-11-27T07:52:05Z 2009-11-27T08:01:38Z Dolls inspired! From a couple of days ago.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />“Shou-chan! Wake up!”<br /><br />“Nn..”<br /><br />“Shou-chan,” There was an irritated sigh while the voice got dependable. As there was also someone grabbing hold of his hand and shaking the arm. “You need to wake up. It’s past eight already.”<br /><br />Shouta opened his eyes slowly as the whole room blurred. Focusing on one spot was hard enough with someone shaking him still. He quickly grabbed hold of Tama’s hand and yanked him down into his lap. Tamao gave a small squeak as he landed in the tall man’s lap. He didn’t mean to wake up a grumpy Shouta, more or less he didn’t know if he had work.<br /><br />“Sh-Shou-chan…”<br /><br />“Tama, there is no need to shake me like crazy.”<br /><br />Tamao blushed slightly as he looked away from him. Why was he being lectured? He should be the one lecturing Shouta. How does it always end up being the other way around? Tamao pouted at Shouta as he looked back to find the other putting on his black framed glasses.<br /><br />“You should sleep on the bed, Shou-chan. You also came home late again last night. Still—“<br /><br />Shouta sighed loudly as he rubbed his forehead a bit. Tamao was a headache all on his own, lecturing and being pouty. He looked at him with a bored look as he wrapped his arms around the little man. Tamao was cute in his own way just very loud in the morning.<br /><br />“Stop lecturing me. You should be happy that I’m not working today. So if you want us to do something you should watch what you say.”<br /><br />“Shou-chan… why didn’t you tell me you’re off? We could make up for not seeing that moving last month.”<br /><br />There he goes giving off that pout. Shouta pushed Tamao gently off of his lap and stood up. Tamao yelped at the sudden push and quickly stood up shoving his finger up at Shouta’s face.<br /><br />“You.. jerk! You didn’t have to shove me off that way! It’s just… I feel bad for missing out last month… since it was my fault.”<br /><br />“Tama, you need to relax. What’s wrong anyway?”<br /><br />“What’s wrong?! Everything!”<br /><br />He quickly turned around and hunched his shoulders. Work hadn’t been the best and he always got one upped by those damn Tokkei members. Tamao had been feeling useless with his investigations of not being a better private detective. How would Shouta understand what he felt? He had a desk job and didn’t get in on any kind of action. Little did Tamao know that Shouta would understand, but keeping the secret safe was more important then letting it slip out.<br /><br />Shouta put his hands on top of Tamao’s shoulders and turned him around. He gently cupped his chin and lifted his head up. He gave the little man a kind smile; Tamao just needed a little bit more support. Shouta knew that he worked hard at his job, just that the Tokkei had more personnel that had better training and the investigators where better then the police investigators.<br /><br />“Don’t be afraid to tell me, Tama. I may not understand in full detail but I’m here to support you. I don’t like seeing you upset.”<br /><br />“Shou-chan, I just feel useless at work. Like no matter what I do it’s not enough. They are always a step ahead of me. It’s irritating!”<br /><br />“You’ll have to explain what you mean by they.”<br /><br />“The damn dolls! The Tokkei! They are always ahead of us by a step most times. How can we do a proper investigation?”<br /><br />Tamao threw his arms up into the air as he stared up at Shouta. Hopefully he was making some kind of sense with the other. However, the look he gave wasn’t one he was expecting. Shouta seemed to be a little agitated by his outburst. This is why he knew that the taller man wouldn’t understand. Everything ended up being in debates or arguments.<br /><br />“They are human beings too, Tama. Even if a lot of people don’t think so they have feelings. You probably just have to look passed what they do for their job.”<br /><br />“Ugh! You! You always have to take the defensive side! Why can’t you ever be on my side?! It’s not fair! It’s as if whatever I have to say doesn’t matter!”<br /><br />“It does matter. Stop yelling and actually start using that brain of yours. Start thinking and maybe for once you might get ahead of them. Maybe they just have a better investigation team.. I don’t know. What do you want me to say?”<br /><br />“I.. anything but what you usually do! They execute criminals! So what if they are on the death penalty! We can still do a regular investigation and maybe just maybe then they might be wrong for once! Whatever happened to criminals going on parole or even shaping their lives differently? It happens!”<br /><br />“Some people just don’t change. You haven’t changed much.”<br /><br />“You haven’t either! So what does that mean? That we’ll be like this the rest of our lives? Fighting and arguing back and forth! What’s the point?!”<br /><br />The little man quickly made his way out of Shouta’s room stomping out. He was angry, really angry. His childhood friend didn’t even care about his feelings or even what he saying! Why was it always like this? It was if Shouta actually cared about the Tokkei more then he. Just being he had a job at the Ministry of Justice didn’t mean he was any better than him. Tamao gripped the edge of the nearest chair. He had to calm himself, but why did everything have to be so hard?<br /><br />Shouta reached out a hand as the other man quickly walked out. He didn’t mean to hurt his feelings. It was hard to not hurt his feelings, Tamao had a bunch of feelings to counteract his own. It was something that he liked about the older man. Regardless of age, Tamao still acted immature most of the time even though he always brought up their age difference like it matters. He slowly exited the room to find him gripping the chair. If there was something he could do it would to actually spend sometime with him. They didn’t get to do it often with their busy jobs.<br /><br />The younger man walked over towards Tamao. He didn’t dare touch him, not when he was like this. There would be a punching involved and he could handle the little punches from Tamao. It hurt sometimes but he deserved it most of the time. Shouta crossed his arms against his chest.<br /><br />“Tama, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you.”<br /><br />“You never mean to. But you do and I think you don’t know what you say sometimes!”<br /><br />“Hey! Don’t bring this all back on me! You’re the one that started this conversation. If you start something you should just finish it. I don’t completely understand where you are getting at. Besides the fact that you completely hate the Tokkei, so does everyone else in the world. But have you noticed any kind of difference with them around?”<br /><br />“Hardly! The crime rate might have gone down a little bit but that doesn’t mean anything! There have been more crimes!”<br /><br />“Some of those crimes aren’t even crimes. Sometimes it could be a trap for them. They are sacrificing their own lives too to keep the public for getting hurt.”<br /><br />“How would you know?! Hanging out with one of them at work? You shouldn’t, it might eventually come back to hurt you!”<br /><br />“Do I tell you who you should or shouldn’t hang out with? I don’t care if you hang out with someone else.”<br /><br />Tamao quickly turned around shaking a finger at him. But before he could yell back at him, Shouta’s phone started ringing and vibrating on the table. He glanced over at the phone and then at Shouta. It looked as if he didn’t even budge towards it. Usually he’s quick to pick up any kind of phone calls. Tamao clutched his hands into fists as the phone continued to ring.<br /><br />“Aren’t you going to answer it?”<br /><br />“No, they can leave a voicemail. I am off today and I’m talking to you.”<br /><br />“More like arguing with me.”<br /><br />“Do you want me to answer it?”<br /><br />“No.”<br /><br />Shouta quickly moved from his spot and ignored the call so it would go straight to voicemail. It was his vice captain Shikibu; it would just have to wait since he had other issues to deal with right now. He glanced over at the other man who was shaking slightly. This wasn’t how he thought the day would go, but apparently Tamao had his own issues to deal with as well. If anything he didn’t want to lose the man over this little spat. It was a big step into the relationship as well, if there was going to be one.<br /><br />Tamao slowly took in a breath through his nose and let it out through his mouth. It helped only a little bit and he sat down in the chair slumping over in it. He felt small compared to Shouta. When did the other become so much more mature than he? Perhaps it was supposed to end up like this; even he started to feel like crap at work. Even all the work that he does end up doing he ends up doing even more work than necessary. He shut his eyes as he felt tears starting to threaten out.<br /><br />The red head slowly made his way back over to Tamao and carefully put a hand on his shoulder. It was a gesture that he knew that wouldn’t get him into trouble and he squeezed it gently. He didn’t mind comforting the other man; it would probably make things easier.<br /><br />“Tama, let’s just drop the topic for now. Let’s do something together. You can pick.”<br /><br />“Thanks, but it’s your turn to pick something.”<br /><br />He sniffed a bit as he looked up at Shouta, he couldn’t help the tears now. They just flowed out all on its time. Tamao felt stupid for even crying slightly in front of him. He didn’t even mean too it just happened. Shouta looked down at him sadly as he moved a thumb to brush away the leaky tears. He didn’t mean to get Tamao so worked up. The little man had been full of emotions and the slightest bit of anything just pushed him in the wrong direction. Tamao always ended up going in head first not taking in all of the possibilities.<br /><br />Shouta leaned over a bit and gently grabbed Tamao’s hand and lifted him up from the chair. He pulled him into his chest and gave him a half hug. Tamao sniffed again as he shoved his face into the fabric of Shouta’s shirt. He felt embarrassed and more of a child like this, why did he have to be so tall? Tamao couldn’t be intimidating he could only give the other glares and hope it was intimidating. Being short didn’t help with that kind of problem.<br /><br />“Even if it’s my turn to pick, you should. I really didn’t mean to get you this upset.”<br /><br />“I don’t even know why I’m crying.”<br /><br />“You’re all worked up, relax a little. Stop getting so defensive.”<br /><br />“How can I when you get all defensive? Why does it have to be this way?”<br /><br />“It doesn’t have to be this way. Come on.”<br /><br />Shouta lead the other over to their living room and sat on the couch. He gently pulled Tamao down and sat him next to him. Tamao curled up on the couch and leaned his head against Shouta’s arm. It made him feel a bit better to just be next to Shouta and like this. It didn’t happen a lot anymore and he wondered how it even happened in the beginning. Shouta lifted his arm and wrapped it around Tamao’s shoulders moving his head to lean against his chest. He hunched over a bit and nuzzled his head a bit on top of Tamao’s head.<br /><br />“Feeling a bit relaxed?”<br /><br />“Feeling a bit childish. But it is rather comforting.”<br /><br />“Good. I’m going to listen to my voicemail real quick.”<br /><br />“Okay.”<br /><br />Shouta took out the cell phone and quickly put in the numbers to get to the voicemail. It had been rather urgent and maybe he could get away for a little bit to pick up the paperwork. Paperwork was always good especially since it had been a slight homework assignment. Assessments that had to be done within the next day, he’d be up all night working on them, which meant he’d get no sleep tonight.<br /><br />Tamao shifted against him before moving and looking at Shouta. He didn’t want to keep him if he had to go in or something. He understood how much the job meant to Shouta and if he did go he hoped it wouldn’t be long. It meant he’d have to find something to do on his own; he hated being here by himself. Shouta gave him a small smile and he hanged up the phone.<br /><br />“Some bad news, I have to go to my job and pick up some paperwork. Good news, I’ll be back. So find something that we can do when I get back. I don’t want to go out anywhere.”<br /><br />“Promise?”<br /><br />“Promise.”<br /><br />“Alright. I’ll figure out something.”<br /><br />Shouta got up from the seat and quickly made it to the door. He grabbed his coat and put it on as he walked out of the apartment. Tamao fell sideways onto the couch staring at the TV screen. Maybe they could watch a movie here. It was the only option that they could do here besides maybe argue at each other. Shouta was right to say that he had started the conversation and he could have easily ended. Instead he got worked up and now he was here by himself for a bit. He sat up and put his hands in between his legs. What else could they do? A movie seemed to be the safest bet and it wouldn’t hurt. It meant that he could cuddle if he got the right movie.<br /><br />What was he really in the mood for? He got up from the couch and made his way towards the door. He slowly put on his long coat and shoes as he stood there thinking about what to pick up from the rental place. There probably wouldn’t be that many movies, since they only go out once a month anywhere to the actual theaters. They were going to go see a crime solving film, but now he could chose whatever. Tamao sighed as he finally left the apartment as well.<br /><br />[Take one look at yourself, and realize...<br />Life's been treating you nice, better be wise...<br />And enjoy your moments.<br />Take one look at yourself, into your eyes...<br />How you treated your life, wasn't too wise...<br />Cause its getting closer...<br />~ Infected Mushroom – The Legend of the Black Shawarma]<br /><br />Shouta entered the apartment, it had been dark inside and he turned on a few lights. He walked around the rooms looking for Tamao and not spotting him he quickly put the folder into his room. There would be time to do the papers later and for now he would just wait for the other to come back. The door opened not too long and he stepped out of the bedroom to glance over at Tamao. He had a huge smile as he glanced around the room and spotted Shouta. The little man seemed to be in a much better mood and he quickly moved into the living room.<br /><br />Tamao had been excited to finally find a movie that could be both really good and dramatic. He didn’t really know much about the movie only that it had to deal with memories and such things like that. The girl at the check out had only briefly explained but she seemed to know what she was talking about. A slight mind twister but at the same time a very awesome movie.<br /><br />“So? You ended up getting a movie?”<br /><br />“Yeah, one that we’ve never seen and maybe might like. The plot is about memories and it might be strange. It’s also an older movie too.”<br /><br />“Oh? What’s the name?”<br /><br />“Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.”<br /><br />“Almost sounds like it would be mind boggling. Do you think you’ll be able to keep up with it?”<br /><br />“Oh come on! If I need help you can explain if you understand it!”<br /><br />He pouted at Shouta as he chuckled at him. At least he was back and he made it back before him! Tamao wanted to be here and waiting for him, usually it ends up being like that but it didn’t matter. He wondered if Shouta had to wait long for him, but it didn’t seem like it. Tamao quickly popped the DVD into the player and sat down on the couch picking up the remote for the TV. He turned it on and there was a huge news bulletin stating about a murderer on the loose. It was quickly changed over to the DVD side. No interruptions, not even to watch recent events, Shouta sat down next to Tamao. He didn’t even notice the bulletin nor care what it might have said. Right now it was just them and the movie, just like he said.<br /><br />Once the previews where over the main DVD screen finally popped up. Shouta didn’t have time to look at the people in the right corner as Tamao clicked on play movie. At least he didn’t have to show the other man how to use a remote. It wasn’t exactly hard but at least now they were together and would have a decent time. Even if it was a movie that they never watched before, he just hoped that Tamao picked a good movie.<br /><br />As the movie progressed, it got stranger and stranger. If that was even possible, it had a lot of plot turns and even some sad moments. Shouta could actually relate to the film and keep up with it. Tamao had cuddled himself into his side during the middle part of the movie. He wondered if the detective had gotten sleepy but it seemed like his full interest was on the film itself. Which was good since he might not have to explain anything at the end. Once the movie was over they both looked at each other. Tamao looked slightly excited at the whole thing.<br /><br />“Even though they both got their memory erased of each other. They still ended up seeing each other and ended up being with each other! It was as if their love for each other never really went away.”<br /><br />“It’s more like they didn’t get their feelings erased. Since it was just a memory, it doesn’t necessarily mean that their feelings would be erased along with it.”<br /><br />“Yeah, that’s what they were totally showing with the secretary and the main doctor. That was a little weird at first but at the same time necessary for the film.”<br /><br />Shouta smiled at him. Tamao was in a great mood as he stretched a bit on the couch. It had been a rather long movie too but he wasn’t the least bit tired. The captain had been glad that Tamao actually picked a decent movie and it was actually really good despite the fact that it was strange. If he had to pick something it would have been an action film or something that might have bored Tamao. This kind of film would have been the last pick in everything else.<br /><br />Tamao looked at Shouta as he pondered asking a question. It might lead into a weird conversation or even another argument, but it would be a question related to the film. He really shouldn’t care about the answer but he would anyway.<br /><br />“If we both ended up getting our memories erased of each other. Would we end up just like them?”<br /><br />“What kind of question is that? Besides, Tama, I wouldn’t get our memories erased. There’s too many of them and it would still end up being like them. Our feelings for each other would still bring us back together. Just that it’ll be different and we’ll end up starting over.”<br /><br />“You… wouldn’t get me erased?”<br /><br />“No, I wouldn’t.”<br /><br />Shouta looked at Tamao wondering if he was going to ask another question. He hoped that he wouldn’t ask the next one. Only because it might lead to an awkward situation and Tamao didn’t need to know everything. He would have to lie and he had many other lies already that he used. One more would just add to the guilt. Tamao smiled widely instead and wrapped his arms around Shouta’s middle hugging him. Shouta chuckled as he returned the hug.<br /><br />“You are very happy.”<br /><br />“Yeah? What of it? I’m with you for tonight. This never lasts long enough.”<br />“It doesn’t. It always goes by very quick.”<br /><br />“I wish it wouldn’t.”<br /><br />Tamao peeked up at the other as he pulled back a bit. He couldn’t tell if Shouta was happy or not but he wanted to cuddle some more. However, he didn’t want to force Shouta into something that he might not want to end up doing. Tamao sighed as he looked at the TV screen. Shouta glanced over at it and then back over at the man. Tamao was hard to figure out sometimes but maybe now he’d just take the relationship a little bit further. He gently pulled Tamao into his lap and wrapped his arms around him.<br /><br />Tamao made a slight gasp at the suddenness and adjusted himself on the lap. It was the second time it happened today and this time it was done with Shouta awake. He blinked and glanced up at him with slight wide eyes. He wasn’t sure what the other man might do next but at least he could be closer to him. Tamao slowly moved closer and rested his head in the nook of Shouta’s arm looking up at him still.<br /><br />“Why do you have to be so cute?”<br /><br />“Shou-chan!”<br /><br />Shouta chuckled as he leaned his had down closer to Tamao’s. If anything he liked holding the other like this. Even if it might have made him feel like a child, for Shouta it only made it seem like Tamao was safe. He was very safe in his arms and he would protect him as much as he could. There was one more thing that he wanted to do, and maybe it would ease them into a much more smoother course.<br /><br />Tamao blushed at the closeness of Shouta’s face. He didn’t get to look at it from this up close sometimes. To him it seemed like Shouta was only getting handsomer each day, he didn’t think he would end up like that. He didn’t even think he was cute. Even if he was cute, he guessed he could let Shouta tell him.<br /><br />The captain brushed his nose a bit over Tamao’s. He wanted to ease them into it and maybe this would be the best. He leaned in the rest of the way and kissed Tamao sweetly. Tamao’s eyes widened at the contact before drifting halfway closed. It had been so long since their last relationship, who knew it would go like this? He slowly started to kiss Shouta back as he was pulled closer. The warmth had been nice along with the sweet soft kiss. As long as Shouta wanted it maybe he’d just live with the fact of their differences. It was nice to be cared for, even if it was a secret from everyone else. It was a good secret that they shared.<br /><br />Tamao was the first to break it with his cheeks turning bright red. Shouta smiled at him as he held him closer. The man cuddled against him enjoying the moment before it would actually end.<br /><br />“You didn’t… have to do that, Shou-chan.”<br /><br />“Why not? It’s perfectly safe.”<br /><br />Shouta leaned back and cupped Tamao’s chin lifting it up slightly. He moved his head down and brushed his lips tenderly against Tamao’s. If he could kiss him more he would. Even though Tamao pouted and yelled, he had very soft lips and small ones, compared to Shouta’s wide semi-full lips. Tamao gave a slight moan at the affectionate kiss. He rested a hand against Shouta’s chest as he tried to breath slowly. The heat in his cheeks didn’t help and the beating of his heart rose. He could swear that it was beating loud. As his hand fell slightly it ended up against Shouta’s, it too was beating fast and the heat of the other made his head spin slightly.<br />The taller man was the first to pull away this time. He had to stop before he moved it along too quickly. Tamao slowly fixed his breathing as he nudged his head into Shouta’s shoulder. He wanted more but at the same time just needed to breath. Everything happened so quickly he thought he might be dreaming. But he wasn’t asleep since he would know.<br /><br />“Shou-chan…”<br /><br />“Shhh… Tama…”<br /><br />He held the smaller man close, if anything he wanted them to stay like this. At least until Tamao finally ended up falling asleep, he didn’t mind if he had to carry him off to bed. It at least gave them some more time. Tamao nodded his head as he stayed enjoying the fondness and smell of the other. Shouta did have good taste in picking out his cologne. It wasn’t too strong and it wasn’t too weak, it also was very unique compared to the other ones. Tamao didn’t really know how to pick out certain things, but at least for Shouta’s birthday he had bought the right kind in a bigger size.<br /><br />Since then, it was always the same cologne that Shouta would buy. It made him happy, now all he needed was to figure out a Christmas gift for him. Shouta wasn’t exactly easy to shop for but maybe he might get to meet one of his co-workers. So he could get a better idea. As the time went by Tamao started to yawn as he cuddled more into Shouta. He almost didn’t want to go to sleep but his eyes demanded him too. After crying and getting worked up it was hard to stay up longer. Tamao ended up falling asleep to the sound of Shouta’s beating heat.<br /><br />Shouta looked down and noticed that the other was fast asleep. He smiled as he slowly shifted and picked him up. Tamao felt so light that it seemed like he wasn’t even there. He carried Tamao into his bedroom and laid him carefully down on the bed. Tamao curled into a slight ball on the bed as he shivered from the noncontact. Shouta quickly covered him with the thick blanket to get him to stop shivering.<br /><br />“Good night, Tama.”<br /><br />He quietly walked out of the bedroom and walked into his own. Shouta sighed as he stared at the folder. Paperwork was always such a hassle and he would have to get some sleep. Tamao wasn’t going to like finding him on the floor again but there was nothing he could do. So he just went to work filling out the assessment papers. At least he got to see Tamao happy, which made him pleased.<br /><br />[Your arms are my castle,<br />Your heart is my sky,<br />They wipe away tears that I cry.<br />Oh, the good and the bad times,<br />We’ve been through them more,<br />You make me rise when I fall.<br />Cause every time we touch I get this feeling,<br />And every time we kiss I swear I can fly,<br />Can’t you feel my heart beat fast?<br />I want this to last.<br />Need you by my side.<br />Cause every time we touch I feel the static,<br />And every time we kiss I reach for the sky,<br />Can’t you feel my heart beat so?<br />I can’t let you go,<br />Want you in my life.<br />~ Cascade – Every Time We Touch (Yanou’s Candlelight Mix)]<br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:27634 2009-11-27T07:08:40Z 2009-11-27T07:08:40Z SWEET!<br /><br />Happy Thanksgiving to those celebrating it.<br /><br />I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Besides the fact of having my problem of the month. We had a delicious meal as well as a birthday all in one day. It was great. I ended up getting a little bit tipsy, but overall it turned out to be a great night.<br /><br />NEW CHAPTER OF DOLLS! Things are starting to get intense for this arc! <br /><br />I think my night is pretty much complete! :D Ended with a good note. I can't complain. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:27193 2009-11-22T19:11:46Z 2009-11-22T19:14:38Z Okay, here's a bit of a update. Since I could get online late at night yesterday, I went around checking everything. Mainly checking onemanga.com to find out a lot of updates in Dolls, which included 5 chapters that I didn't get to read. So yay! Now I'm all caught up with that and currently just doing many online applications while I still can. Still job searching and let me tell ya, California's economy is in the suck right now. I do mean really bad, so finding jobs here is ridiculous. But I'm pretty sure it'll be the same if I do end up going back home to Pennsylvania.<br /><br />Yeah, if I can't find a job by January I'll be going back to my parent's house in Pennsylvania. I'm not looking forward it, but at the same time, it'll give me a break and just to relax while finding a job. I'll most likely try to get a job at a hospital there. I'm trying to get a hospital job here since that's my main goal.<br /><br />Other than that, I think I might be coming down with a cold. Every of my roommates already went through their colds and I'm the last to get it! BUGGER! Oh well.<br /><br />This song is one of my current obsessions. Ever listening to Infected Mushroom's new album I enjoyed it greatly! It has more guitar, more style to it, it's really different from all of their others! This is has great changes in it that just make me want to hoop to it. Yeeah, I hoop sometimes.<br /><br />Oh, and? Is there anyone out there that love candles? If you do you should totally check out this <br /><a href="https://kayd.scentsy.us/Home">website!</a> <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><lj-embed id="8" /><br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:27070 2009-10-14T23:28:42Z 2009-10-14T23:28:42Z Okay.<br /><br />So I'm giving you all an update.<br /><br />I'm still alive and still searching for a job. I did have a job interview on Monday, but I knew I completely bombed it. I couldn't think straight with just standing and talking. I was totally uncomfortable but meh, it was a mall job anyway. I'll still keep my search and hope that I'll eventually get one. I need to work, so badly. That might sound odd to some but really, to make anything in life you need a job. So I'm looking hard for one. <br /><br />Uh, also, when I do get the internet, I will not be journal rping anymore. I will, however, be willing to do some one-on-one rping over AIM, MSN, and whatever instant messaging that I may have.<br /><br />Maybe, in the near future when I'm not running away trying to get my life in order. I may go back to journal rping. For now and when I do get net it will be a big no. Sorry to those who are expecting me back but now that I've been away for months. I rather not deal with drama online and some drama in my life. It's hard to balance both and keep a straight mind to it all and be partial to everything.<br /><br />I will not get into the big stuff. Let's just leave it at that.<br /><br />Another good thing and update is that I have been writing more. I wish to continue writing and it helps me to be more creative. I missed that part of my life and I feel like it is a good thing. Hopefully, when I feel that it's unique enough and good I may even try to publish one of my works. <br /><br />If none of you hear from me in a while, don't think I'm trying to ignore everyone and everything. I just can't get to the net everyday to talk to everyone. Do know, that I miss you all and I wish that I could talk to everyone again. Hope to hear or speak to some of you soon. <br /><br />See you all later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:26775 2009-05-12T09:03:38Z 2009-05-12T09:03:38Z I usually don't party hard. Let me tell ya, jello-shots are the boom. I had a grand total of five jello-shots. I had four in the beginning. Then we played a lovely game called quarters. If you don't know the game, let me explain, basically you are bouncing a quarter off the table and into a shot glass. You have two shot glasses going and you and the person opposite of you try it. Once you get it into the shot glass you pass it to the next person. Say the person opposite of you is still trying but now the person next to them it trying to get it in. The person next to you gets it in before you, you take the shot in the middle. <br /><br />I had a total of two shots from that game on top of four jello-shots. I even took a fifth jello-shot during the game because the stupid quarter went into it. I'm not sure how many shots that actually is. Probably four and a half, because the jello-shots weren't that strong. But that's more shots then I usually take.<br /><br />The birthday was a blast besides a few minor drama issues towards the end but what can you do? But I'm going to be feeling it in the morning and not be having any kind of alcohol for a while again.<br /><br />I haven't really partied this hard since St. Patty's Day, so it's all good! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:26423 2009-05-07T06:45:20Z 2009-05-07T06:45:20Z This is a video from youtube of the song that helped with the inspirational writing.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><br /><lj-embed id="7" /><br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:25871 2009-05-07T00:34:59Z 2009-05-07T01:48:14Z Infected Mushroom - Illuminaughty Have you ever had one of those inspirations? That came from listening to a song? I haven't had one of those in a very <i><b>long</b></i> time. It hit me like a ton of bricks and the imagery I got from it. Oh man. I can't even put it into words right now. <br /><br />Check back later when I can actually write more coherent! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:25777 2009-05-06T09:07:03Z 2009-05-06T09:07:03Z I had my court thing today, The Commissioner was a very hard strict old <i>woman</i>. She didn't really want to hear any kind of story. She only really wanted to hear whatever she answered. So, I got out of having to do the registration part. But driving with no insurance hit, and they WIPE you clean of your money. It was either pay this BIG fee or do 96 hours of community service. HECK, 96 hours? That's only a couple of weeks. I need to get this done before November too. It's not that hard, besides, I wouldn't mind doing community service just to get a better view of the towns and such.<br /><br />We went to people's houses and chilled out there for several hours. Finally got home around 10:30ish, then we went through Scentsy things. Right after that we watched Balto, now I'm finally relaxing out in my room. I'm hot too, D| it was ridiculous out in the valley, all dry and very hot. It was icky.<br /><br />Glad to be home and relaxing finally. Hopefully I'll be around for most of the day tomorrow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:25550 2009-05-03T11:06:30Z 2009-05-03T11:06:30Z Since it was Anime day for Cartoon Network, I actually decided to stay awake long enough to catch Death Note on Cartoon Network. Fancy that it was the episode after L's death. Which had a wonderful timeline leading up to the point to his death. I'm going to admit, I haven't watched nearly enough of the Death Note Anime, for a lot of reasons.<br /><br />As the episode drew to a close, all I can say is that at least there was a Matsuda dork moment. Other then that, the next episode will be where I actually started to re-read. So, I guess every Sunday morning at 3am I'll be watching the episodes until I get to the part where I left off...maybe. I'm curious to see the last episode in dubbed, but I will not force myself to go find it on youtube. I OBJECT. If I'm <i>really</i> <i><b>really</b></i> bored, then I might.<br /><br />Well since it's 4am, I'm going to go head off to sleepland! <br /><br />Oh, that back pain? It was totally gone the next day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:25285 2009-05-01T09:24:58Z 2009-05-01T09:24:58Z I'm not going to be around tomorrow at all. I'm going to be laying in my bed trying to get over whatever this is. Be it a pull muscle or whatever not. Stretching it doesn't help and it makes it <i>worse</i>. I really want this to go away but bad timing with the whole Swine Flu scare. This has been going on for about a week now and three days.<br /><br />It wasn't hurting for a while today. That might have been due to either the computer chair I was using or actually having my mind focus on something for FOUR HOURS and MORE. WoW is addicting after a little while and all that I'm doing is running around leveling. <br /><br />Walking around actually helps a bit. Which is a tad bit odd... I don't know what else to do about it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:24890 2009-04-28T07:12:57Z 2009-04-28T07:12:57Z I want this pain to go away already.<br /><br />I want to stop hurting so I can actually think properly. <br /><br />.---.; Just have to keep stretching and hope it'll go away soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:24406 2009-04-25T06:10:42Z 2009-04-25T06:10:42Z <i>Leave a comment and I'll tell you honestly what I think of you.</i><br /><br /><b>I love chocolate and sweets. This will have no sugar coats. It'll be black like just made coffee.</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:24166 2009-04-23T00:11:04Z 2009-04-23T00:11:04Z When you are in a deep conversation with your best friend. Things do manage to come up. I do remember one specific detail that she had told me.<br /><br />We were listening to old music that both of us remember. From "Dolphin's Cry" by Live to "No Surrender" by Weiss. We even came across romance and how I would <i>love</i> to have a <b>little</b> romance in my life. That's all I ask for. Just a little bit of romance, even if it's small, that's all I want.<br /><br />That's not the only thing I'm here to talk about. Since she had told me something. That something made me realize that it's true. However, as much as I wish to speak about it and what it is. I won't. Because it means a lot to me. It's a good way to know who actually really <i>care</i> about me. It's a good way to know who are actually my <i>true</i> friends. I even wish that some other people would speak up on things that they don't like. That hey, maybe you should back off, or any other kind of things that I do that I <i>don't</i> notice.<br /><br />My best friend has told me <i>many</i> things. I look up to her, because she has grown into a very beautiful person. I even hate comparing my looks to hers and to her best friend. It made me stressful, hurtful, hateful, and even jealous. But that's when I started thinking, what can I do to make me better? What can I do to grow to be a <i>better</i> person?<br /><br />I read horoscope things. My best friend had showed me one that was <i>really</i> <b><i>really</i></b> good. However, it was the Celtic zodiac section that I took to heart. Since the site doesn't have a Capricorn zodiac page just yet. The <a href="http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/birch.html">Birch</a> from December 24-January 20th. There is one piece of information that I took from this that actually <i>works</i>. <br /><br />"Birch people need a goal in life in order to avoid becoming depressed and pessimistic." I actually find this to be very true. Once I started setting goals, I became less depressed and less pessimistic. I started to become much more positive and looking at things in a much more positive view point. When others started to get depressed, I would tell them to look at better things. Think about the positive more then the negative. Why look on a negative view point anyway? It just makes things much worse than they should.<br /><br />I usually don't take these things seriously. Because most of the time they are completely not me at all, I take in more of the prospect of what can actually help me. That did, I tried it and I'm much more happier than I once was. I want to keep it that way.<br /><br />I make goals everyday. Most of the time I do get a chance to do those goals. Other times they are just there because I <i>need</i> them to be there to push me to actually do something.<br /><br />My main goal right now is to find a decent job. That is number one along with just having fun. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:23817 2009-04-22T23:39:07Z 2009-04-22T23:39:07Z I typically don't do anon meme's for many reasons. However, my own personal goal is to just let things go as they should be. Anything that needs to be said that can't be said, be my guest to do it there. Heck, it'll probably even help me grow as a person.<br /><br /><center><a href="http://thrives.livejournal.com/899919.html?thread=9161551#t9161551"><font face="georgia" color="#000000" size="5">ANON MEME</font></a></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:23718 2009-04-22T10:09:21Z 2009-04-22T11:13:54Z <b>(1)</b> Choose an episode of anime or television series you have on your computer. Make sure you're certain you want that one, you cannot change your mind or skip this step. <b>DO NOT TELL YOUR FLIST WHAT YOU CHOSE.</b><br /><br /><b>(2)</b> Make note of how long the episode is here -&gt; Length of episode = <b>22:41</b><br /><br /><b>(3)</b> Ask your flist to choose a time between 00:00 and whatever the length of your episode is. Be specific, (ie: 19:11, 21:09, 02:42)<br /><br /><b>(4)</b> Make them an icon using THAT FRAME ONLY no matter what it is. And remember, you can only use that ONE episode you chose previous, even if the person posting isn't familiar with it.<br /><br /><i>Edit by me:</i> <b>(5)</b> If you want, you may even chose another time if you want to~<br /><br />Let's see what happens.<br /><br /><b>EDIT2:</b> If anyone can actually guess the episode AND manga volume it's from. You get brownie points and much love~ &lt;333 and maaaybe a mini-fanfic by your choice~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kaorisiberian18:23310 2009-04-20T09:47:30Z 2009-04-20T09:48:29Z OH MAN.<br /><br />This weekend was effin' awesome! We had our own little party friday night, then I went to a "foam" party on Saturday night...it didn't start until 8pm and it was supposed to last until 8am, but it stopped at 6am. It wasn't very foaming and the foam was outdoor instead of indoors but it wasn't too bad. The wharehouse was set up okay, however all three rooms blended together music wise once you got to a certain spot. But over all, I had a blast! <b><font color="green">AND HEY, it's 4-20.</font></b> Which means there will be more fun and games to come when I finally wake up... whenever that maybe.<br /><br />I may be back Tuesday for rp, but I might have to push it for later in the week. I'm so tried and I should be asleep. I'll go crash now.. and update more later.